Poetry

Fit Right In

As I look down
I see a hole in the floor
Leaned down 'cause of smoke
To dodge the lion roar

Guess I'm kinda stuck
On this one-way track
Didn't see it comin'
Too busy missin' what I lack

You were lookin' kinda lost
So I fit right in
Tried to make you smile
To forget about your sins

And now a hole of memories
Haunts me everywhere I go
When I least expect it
It's the next thing I know

So I guess I'll play along
With this hurtful, foolish game
I know I could get hurt, but knowing
You could too is enough for me to play

And you were lookin' kinda dark
So I fit right in
Reveling in evil
Helped by sharing in your sins

I gave you a little too much
A tiny bit too soon
But it still came as a shock
When I found out we were ruined

And now a glimpse of maybes
Haunts me everywhere I go
When I least expect it
It's the next thing I know

You were lookin' kinda regretful
So of course I fit right in
Thought we were in love
But it was no deeper than the skin

So I ignore flashes of memory
Stop ducking out of smoke
My last thought is of emptiness
And then I choke

.~*~.

The above was written in the car on the way home from a shopping trip at petsmart where my dad got fish. It had no real connection with anything at that point in time, I just looked down in the car, slightly carsick, and thought it would be cool if there were a little window in the floor. Heh. Dated August 29th, 2004.